Today is a day of wondering

Today is a day of wondering, I keep wondering what my purpose is. why do I get so involved and then self destruct. Why is that people make things so complicated? why is it that people just can't be civil and compassionate with others? why do i have to deal with people who just cant seem to get along? I am so tired of trying to please people who will never be happy, working with people who will never get to the end of the project, and living in someone elses shadow.

I want to be free from it all, How do you do? Find your passion and dive in and don't take no for answer!

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