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Are you feeling the stress of the season or just not getting it yet? Maybe this will help. http://www.shapemag.co.za/how-to-be-happy-top-7-secrets-of-happy-people/ I liked this article. It might just be able to help me, too.

I have a helpful hint for that winter cold. When things are stuffy, dampen a wash cloth. Warm it in the microwave for a few seconds, then add a drop of eucalyptus oil to the compress. Bring this to your face and inhale. Repeat this daily. This works wonders whether you have a cold or allergies! Try it out. Also remember Chicken soup does wonders too.  Drink some Orange Juice! Feel better at home with lots of rest. Here is a recipe for you to try. Homemade Chicken Soup Ingredients: 1 (3 pound) whole chicken 4 carrots, halved 4 stalks celery, halved 1 large onion, halved water to cover salt and pepper to taste 1 teaspoon chicken bouillon granules (optional) Directions: 1. Put the chicken, carrots, celery and onion in a large soup pot and cover with cold water. Heat and simmer, uncovered, until the chicken meat falls off of the bones (skim off foam every so often). 2. Take everything ou

Are you like me finding it hard to get into Christmas this year? I don't think I have ever felt so down at this time of year. Although, I see the wonderful side of so many people everyday. I am often inspired and want to give more of my self.  I am wondering how to do that will out giving all of it away. My family would kill me if I did that. So what to do. The spirit of the holiday is to give to those who need it more then me. What happens when you are one of those who need the help. I have enjoyed and have been happier then I ever have been before working tat bring my non-profit organization to a place where it is really working for the better of the community and with the help of many wonderful people, GRLIC has grown and is really working to the better of our community. I have met so many wonderful people who have touch my heart with their generosity. They not only donate their time, money and knowledge be they absolutely care. People are really great. So what do I do to ge

I have started Pride and Prejudice, and it seems that I must have read it sometime in my life because it is so familiar. I wanted to watch this movie, I bought it but never got to watch it. Now I am reading it. I am wondering if watching the movie will be as fun. Let me know if you are reading any of the books on the list. Leave your comments. This are some great books. I know everyone has favorites. I have list some authors that I have enjoyed reading before. Maybe you could make some suggestions to our readers that might peak some interest. Tell us why you like it and where you found the book.

Have you read these books? Which ones do you want to read? Which ones have you read and what did you think? Please leave your comments for all of us to share. I am going to start at the top and let you know which ones I like best.  The BBC believes most people will have read only 6 of the 100 books listed here.  Have you read more than 6 of these books? 1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen 2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien 3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte 4 Harry Potter series (1-7) - JK Rowling  5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee 6 The Bible  7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte 8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell  9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman 10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens 11 Little Women - Louisa Mae Alcott 12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy 13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller 14 Complete Works of Shakespeare 15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier 16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien 17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk 18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger   19

Today is a day of wondering, I keep wondering what my purpose is. why do I get so involved and then self destruct. Why is that people make things so complicated? why is it that people just can't be civil and compassionate with others? why do i have to deal with people who just cant seem to get along? I am so tired of trying to please people who will never be happy, working with people who will never get to the end of the project, and living in someone elses shadow. I want to be free from it all, How do you do? Find your passion and dive in and don't take no for answer!

I don't usually say much about the outside world here in my blog but really the media has gone crazy! Since does a cult pastor down in the Florida speak for any of us. I know he does not speak for me and he should not even get a second glance. I thought that the teaching of Christ say something about treating others as you would like to be treated. This is what is wrong with society these days. We do not even follow our own teachings. I find it disgusting that the media and the world is watching this idiot in Florida. Sure there is free speech but that does not mean we have to listen and when the media puts it on as the first thing on all the newscasts...... We are forced to watch and listen. I have been turning it off.   Now I hear that he is being asked to be an consultant who will be speaking to Muslim representatives who are working at putting a Mosque near the site in NYC.  Why should his opinion even be considered. He does not represent anyone but 25 cult participants i

Time seems to be one of those things that we all just cant hold on to. My time is so full lately with the start of the radio station that I don't even realize that I have missed several days writing my thoughts down in this blog. My apologies. Are you wondering what has been happening in my life lately? Well, I am can you fill me in. I did want to comment on something that is bothering me a little. I guess you would call it gossip but I just call it talking about other people. I don't like to do it and I find it just awful. I try not to do it. It is not easy. Sometimes we don't even notice that we are doing it. We think we are just keeping up with the times. I heard something the other day about someone I know and I really found it inappropriate to tell anyone. The other part is I don't believe that what was said is true and when it was said there was no way of knowing if it was true. Sometimes rumors can really hurt people, professionally, personally and socially.

Hello, things are so crazy lately, my life is so busy and full. It has been wonderful. Sunday's are a great day to relax and BBQ a nice american cheeseburger and some chips with Koolaide! So take some time today and just sit down enjoy the family or read a book. Hang with friends, what ever helps you appreciate the life you are living. what makes it special for you! See you around the BBQ for burgers and drinks!

Hi and Good morning! I know some of you have missed me. Sorry. I have not had a computer for about a week. I got a new old one but it does not work with facebook or blogger so I have not been able to post. I am sorry I got it as it does not really work for what I need it for. I will have to save up some money to buy a apple laptop or just a really good dell. Anyways, have you been wondering what is going on in my life? it has been wonderful. I have been on vacation since last Wednesday in NJ with my family. My grandmother turned 90, bless her soul and she is still sharp as a tack! She amazes me every time I speak with her. Yesterday, we went to Atlantic City and she won enough so she came back with what she went with. Every time I go with her, she wins or breaks even. I just loose! OK, I don't expect to win but once would be nice. I so enjoy spending time with her, she makes me feel so good. She does have her opinions though and is not afraid to tell you. I guess I really like th

Do forget to treat yourself like the special person you are! Plan a special dinner like we do every once an while or plan something every night! Tonight's dinner is Filet Minon and Shrimp with fresh cut french fries and delicious veggies! I feel like I am at a restaurant but I get to sit in my recliner and relax with the family while I eat some of the best food ever! Remember enjoy the little things.

I spent the day working at the radio station and meeting some wonderful people. I practiced talking on the radio with Ann Epner. I did most of the talking but it was a lot of fun. I really enjoy people. Ann will be hosting a Roxbury Arts Group show on Monday and Friday. Things are so much fun over at the station. I have been having a blast. I am learning so much about how radio works. I am so excited to be involved at this stage. I feel like I have started a whole new life. I wish I could dump the old one meaning that old job! Oh, gosh, it is like a haunting now. Just a few days a week. I really wish it would just go away. I have other things on my plate now. I am looking at other ways to earn money. any one have ideas? I guess I will have to apply for jobs around here but I really just want to find a way to pay my way while doing what I love to do! There must be a way to do it. Things are great! now I just have to pay for them. LOL

Here is a sandwich that really hits the spot. Two pieces of thick toast Chicken cutlet grilled with oregeno and oil, sliced thin Tomatoes Lettuces mozzerella cheese slices basil pesto Put all in between the slices and eat a way! This is a light and tasty sandwich which can be heated or served cold. I love this! Enjoy.

How do we do it, every week it is like a do over button. Every Monday we start over, we go back to work, we go back to the daily grind. It is like a do over button. Last week didn't do so well, maybe this week will, right? So let's start looking at Monday as an opportunity to make a week the best it can be. Let's use Monday as the beginning of something new. What new experience can I have, what can I do differently this week to get a better result? Let's think about these things. What am I going to do this week that I did not do last week? How can I change the relationships I have at work for the better, what did I do last week that I can do differently this week? Monday is not the first day of a work week that we have to get through for the week end but an opportunity to improve things. It is the first day of a new beginning, we should really use Monday as a positive and realize that it has endless possibilities!

It is Saturday and I am spending my morning after a great breakfast with a friend, learning how to operate the computers at the radio station.

Banana Flavored Rum Orange Juice Cranberry Juice Ice Fill glass with ice Add 5 count of Banana rum Add orange juice leaving some room to top off with cranberry juice- stir Add a little bit of cranberry juice This will look like a sunrise- I call it the Beachwood sunrise after my home town and where we were drinking it! Had a great time with my sister, mom and dad last weekend, painting their house and remembering what a wonderful family I have! Share this with your family and remember the reasons why they are so special!

Well TGIF! Not because I am waiting for the weekend but because I am excited. This weekend is my niece's wedding. I am sure it will be the perfect. So are you wondering what has been going on and how my day went on Wednesday. Well, It is really hard to let old habits die! I went in to my old job and they asked me to come in a few days a week for the next few weeks to help them get things organized. If I was really turning over a new leaf, I would have said no, right? Well, being the good hearted person I am, I said I would. At least I can pay some bills for the next few weeks. I am ok this week as my ex boss is on vacation. Next week, may be another story. Today, I am going back there to work from 9-4. not really looking forward to it but it is only for a few weeks. I did get to do some fun stuff yesterday, I went shopping for the radio station to purchase new computers. I went to the apple store for the first time. I really did not like it. I hate loud places and that place is

Good Morning! and I mean a good morning. well except that one of my kids is sick and feels aweful. Otherwise, my life is good. I finally am able to feel something. For so long I have kept things all bottled up. I have not allowed myself to feel for fear of all those horrible feelings coming into play. I had stopped really living. Now, After a great weekend with my family in NJ. I am feeling like life has meaning again. Now, what do I do with myself. I have lots of plans but what plan is the right plan. I am going to take the civil service test and apply for a job at the school. Something simple and not so stressful. I am going to go back to school and get my master's degree. I need it for my teaching certification so if I ever find a teaching job, not looking good in this economy. I will have what I need. I am going to work some part time jobs just to pay the bills over the next month or so. Radio station goes on air on Aug 27th. If I can figure out a way to pay my bills, and just

I am going to go to my parents to help them get their house ready to sell. I am looking forward to painting and going through old memories that have been boxed up in the attic for years. I have been smiling for days. I just did not realize how much being unhappy at work effected you moods. I am beginning to think that it is the pressure from work that has had me so miserable. I actually thought that I was coping. I guess not! lol Now, I can take a deep breath and feel relaxed. I can spend time with my family which I have missed for to long. No one should be held hostage by a job.I am so much better off now that I have my own schedule and my own choices. I have to go pack. I will be walking each night starting next Monday or Tuesday. Want to join my walking club. We can meet across the street from my home around 7:30 pm. I am hoping to walk at least three nights a week but I have lots of meetings so if we get a group of us it wont really matter. Also I am looking for bike. Mine is

Good Morning Out there! I am smiling today, I can't get enough of it. I can't remember the last time I had such a happy feeling over me. Sure, I am wondering what to do next week but freedom from stupidity, freedom from the stress, freedom from all the crap that goes along with it. I am going to focus on the good things in life.I have been searching for jobs that relate to my major and also online programs so I can get my master's degree. What a wonderful life. So much promise, so much to look forward to. I will work next week at the radio station learning about radio. I love volunteering, I love doing things that will benefit other people. It is what I was born for. I am also looking at starting some clubs for kids in the area with the radio station, maybe some Geo cashing, and of course, gardening. If you have any interests in these, let me know we can work to gether . I am also working with my friend Ginny on a water power works conference for next year. I am so

Hey, so my new life begins today! why? you may ask, I am finally done with my job. That is right. We came to a mutual understanding today and work and that means, I only have two full (maybe full days left) I feel like my life is finally changing for the better. What was I thinking working in a corporation? That is not me at all. I want to give back to my community and have some kind of meaning for my life. I may not be leaving on the best of terms but I am leaving. I am not leaving on bad terms except that I finally have something to look forward to. I can not wait to start working with kids at the radio station. Excitement is taking over. I have not felt this alive in two years. You know when you think, what am I getting myself into, oh, no. well listen to that little voice inside and run, run away. Take challenges that make you excited to be alive not ones that just pay the bills. What a life there is to be lead and I am finally taking charge of it and leading my life. Join me a

Well, I went into work yesterday and found out that my friend had been laid off. bummer. I guess because I know what is going on with stuff, I kinda knew something was coming down the pike as they say but it did not make it any better. Now, I have to conduct an exit interview and help figure out what to do next. It makes me feel so more depressed then I all ready am. Of course, she knows I am not happy at work and wants to know when I am going to make the change. I hope soon but I don't want to do something I will regret in a month or so. About the heat, I have read so many postings about the heat. I love the pictures of the snow storm. One of my friends posted "you don't have to shovel the heat!" I love it. I would much rather shovel the snow then sit here in my home and sweat, ugh! I am hoping that the heat does break soon. I actually did not think it was all that hot but the temperature gauge says it is. Here is what I have been doing to change my life. I have

Weekend was great! So much fun. Sidewalk Festival a huge success, still working on cleanup! Anyone got a pickup truck! Everything turned out just perfect, the day, the printing, the music, the people. Could not have asked for a better day. Got back to work to find out that a friend got layoff on Thursday night, sorry for that. it is just a sign of the times. Well, i better get back to work.

So if you have been reading this blog, you probably know that I am a little depressed and that I am trying to change that. One thing you need to know is I do not take drugs of any kind, well maybe some Advil and some alcohol once in while. SO when others go to the doctor and get something for depression, I just get advice and try to make changes that will help. One way I have found to change my mood is to change the project I am working on. Well, my biggest problem lately is I am unhappy with my current job situation. So how did I get in this mess. I went back to school when I was 35 years old and got a degree in Anthropology, Early Childhood Development and Elementary Education Certification. This was so much fun, going back to school as an adult. After graduating at the top of my class, I could not find a job anywhere because of course, the economy drop into a tailspin which we all know we are still trying to pull out of. So, I applied for jobs outside of what I really wanted to do

Tuesday morning before the sidewalk festival. I am so crazed at this point. so much to do and so little time. I know people read this, so if you are with in 25 miles of Roxbury, please volunteer to help out this weekend at the sidewalk festival. I need people to help! Especially between 9:45 and 10:30 for the parade. Lend a hand to a wonderful event. Got to go to work today! more later.........

This is a simple treat to share with your morning guests. Go to the store and pick up some croissants. Also pick up some chocolate pudding the kind you make with milk and have to cook, that is the best kind. Prepare the puddling as direct on the box. Place it in the refrig . You will also need some real whip cream and some really good chocolate sauce. When the pudding is ready, slice the croissants but not all the way through. Put a dab of pudding in the middle. Place in the center of a small dish and add a dollop of whip cream and drizzle chocolate sauce. Serve immediately. This is delicious and easy to make! enjoy. Yummy!

Wow, It is Monday again! What a relief. I am so happy I have made it through another week with out quitting my job, going insane or telling someone off. This is a great accomplishment for me as this is what I want to do everyday. I feel like I live with so much anger and it really is not a good thing. Trying to find ways to control all of my emotions with out pushing them away and just being depressed. I would rather feel them and get them to slowly go away then push them away and just feel blah! Oh, well, things are going well. although, I am not working today because I am not able to. This weekend was a whirl wind with Birthday party Friday and good friends stopping by camp for a celebration, One of my friends got a great job! and we were so happy for her. You know who you are out their... congrats! Saturday was graduation and I presented an award to two of  Roxbury Central School's graduating seniors. That was really rewarding. I love giving back to the community. I wish I w

So, I am really struggling this week. I absolutely hate my job and things are getting worse. I hate everyday. Today, I am having trouble even getting ready to go to work. What is it that does this to me? I am thinking up any excuse to not go. I have so many other things to do, it is riduculous. so many things that I want to do. I will tell you what I want to do. I want to spend all my time working at my foundation. I want to work with kids everyday. I want to learn more about so many things. I want to have no bills as least no loan payments. not sure how that is going to work out! I would love to make a paycheck doing the things I want to do. Someone tell me how you do that? How is it that people figure it out? Do they have a fairly god mother so something? Some people are just at the right place at the right time, I guess. Why can't that person be me? I am going to go to work today because I have to. Not because I want to. I would love it if I could go to the GRLIC office and

SO you might be wondering where I was this morning! I slept until seven and had to run to work, late. I have not been late in years for anything. I was not late per say but I had to run. So for exercise today, I went to yoga in Margaretville. It was great, I love it. what a workout! I don't sweat that bad doing weights for goodness sake. Who would have guessed. I am hoping to get to sleep on time tonight so I can get up and try the belly dancing workout in the morning .I have been waiting to try it out for almost a week now. I am so glad I usually work out in the morning this heat will kill you. I have had three glasses of cool water since I got back from yoga. wow. This would be my new thing for today. Yesterday, my new thing was I had dinner with a friend at her house and she made greek salad and solvaki (remember I am not a good speller) Not something I would normally eat but It was good. I am not sure I would have it again, as it was not my favorite taste. I am not a big fan

What is breakfast at Tiffany's, Isn't Tiffany's a jewelry store? Ok , now this is not healthy per say but I love this. Make some crapes or really thin pancakes, can of blueberry pie filling and real whipped cream place a scoop of blueberry pie filling in the middle of the crape and fold like a burrito Then fry it in a pan for just a few minutes. Serve hot topped with whipped cream. Blueberry Blintz! SO GOOD! Isn't that what food is suppose to be good. I am tired of the idea that food that is good for you has to taste like cardboard. I believe that as long as you eat in moderation, in other words don't eat the whole bag of cookies, just each one or two. I know it is hard to do but if you really enjoy the one or two, you don't need any more, so you can have sweets and things that might not be on your list of what you want to be eating everyday. Just eat a little bit of them. Don't make yourself unhappy while eating, it is necessary for life and one

Good Morning, or is it? Did you ever feel like no matter what you do everyone is against you? That is how I feel most of the time, but logically, I know that no one sets out everyday to be against me. Well, at least no specifically against me, some people set out everyday to be against anyone they run into but that is a different story.  So the same thing as last week, First day of the week goes well, I get up and try out exercising and do, can't say that I love it but I do it. That is what I need  a routine, right! then the next day someone is sleeping in my living room. So same thing today, I wake up and someone is sleeping in my living room. I know they did not plan to sabotage my morning, they just fell a sleep but gosh, give me a break. This is hard for me. Sure you might laugh, hard for you, how is getting up and instead of drinking coffee for an hour, you exercise and then have coffee. not hard right? Well, I have trouble just getting out of bed. I have to drag myself up o

1/2 cup all purpose flour Dash of salt 2 1/2 cups 1% low fat milk 1 (14oz) can of fat-free sweetened condensed milk 2 egg yolks, lightly beaten 2 tsp. vanilla extract 3 cups sliced ripe bananas 48 reduced fat vanilla wafers 4 egg whiles 1/2 cup suger 1. preheat oven to 325 2. Combine flour and salt in medium sauce pan. 3. Gradually stir in 1% milk, sweetened condensed milk and yolks and cook over medium heat. stirring constantly about 8 to 19 minutes or until thickened. 4. Layer 3 banana slices , 3 1/2 Tbsp. puddling and 3 vanilla wafers in each of 8 (1cup) ramekins or oven proof glass dishes. top each with 6 banana slices 3 1/2 tbsp pudding and 3 vanilla wafers. 5. Beat egg whites on high speed with mixer until foamy. Ad sugar, 1 Tbsp. at a time beating until stiff peaks form and sigar dissovles about 2-3 minutes. Spread about 1/2 cup meringue over each pudding. 6. Bake at 325 for 15 to 20 minutes or until golden. Let cool 30 minutes. This is lighter then using re

Just finished my work out! Get that heart beating, yeah! Well, I worked out with Gilad on the upper body today, that went well. I am not sure if I like him but it is a good work out. He does not always use weights which I would rather use the weights when I work out so I added them. This weekend was so busy and next weekend is just a bad if not worse. I wish I had more time and less work.... oh, yeah, I guess everyone probably wishes the same thing. I will not be posting to much today because I have to go to work early to make sure everything is ready for customers this week. When we have customers in house, it makes things much more interesting. the days go by faster. I don't know what I will do different today but I am hoping to mail some resumes out, i have been wanting to for about a week. Well, i have to shower and get out the door this morning. Look for some ramblings later today, I am sure something will set me off today!

Here is a different pasta salad that I like to make because it is quick and easy as with everything I make is. Cook up a pound of pasta, let cool get a bottle of your favorite italian dressing. cheddar cheese 1/2 pound- cut into small pieces salami 1/2 pound cut up into small pieces one green pepper carrot one red pepper cherry tomatoes cut in half add what ever other veggies you like, sometimes I add yellow squash or cucumbers. Mix all items together except for dressing. Then pour over the top as much dressing as you like. Some of the dressing with get absorbed by the pasta as it sits so you make what to keep a little to add right before you serve it. Chill it, a great take with you salad or I love to put it in my lunch box. Enjoy.

It is Sunday morning, Dave and I went to breakfast before the kids got up to the local morning eatery. Way up here the Catskill mountains, there aren't a lot of choices if you want to walk to breakfast. Anyways, I had a chili omelet, probably not the best choice for a good breakfast but I loved it. It is already really hot out. Going to be a scorcher I think! I love Sunday Mornings, I went to church for a while on Sundays. It was fun and I really enjoyed singing with the choir but I have to be honest with myself although I love all the good feelings I get while listening to the surmon, It really makes me think about others, when it comes right down to it, I am just not 100% sure what I believe in. I believe in Mother Nature as a concept of science. We are all living things with in a universe that is vast. We have something in us that makes us different from the plants outside. What that actually is I am not sure. This is way to philosophical for a Sunday Morning. Anyway, right no

One Box of cooked pasta, I like the kind that is all wiggly rotini or something... I just don't pay that much attention to what pasta is called, it is all made of the same stuff. One bag of frozen mixed vegetables- Try different kinds each time and find your favorite combination. cook to desired texture. I like mine a little on the softer side, the kids like them crunchier... Add a little garlic- I like fresh chopped fine and add to taste, (I love garlic, it keeps the vampires away! and all your friends, LOL....) now I like to use butter because I love salt but you can use Olive Oil, Oregano Shaky Cheese (Parmesan/Romano grated cheese, We call it shaky) a little salt and pepper to taste. Mix all the ingredients together. you notice I am not telling you how much of the seasonings to add or how much cheese, experiment until you figure out what you like! Food is personal, make it how you like it and enjoy! I know I do.

Yesterday, my second born daughter (I have four so I really have to number them in order of appearance and that does not include all the ones who are friends of my daughters who I have adopted along the way.)Nevada turned 17. We had a wonderful dinner at the camp (my second home most of the time) strip steak, green beans and hashbrowns (this is a family favorite!). Sarah (the youngest) blew up balloons and they danced around the campsite. Amy (second youngest)as usual was nowhere to be found. My lifes worry. (all my family and friends from when I was young would say that she is payback for my behavior when I was younger, I don't disagree!) I secretly think of her as my favorite sometimes but not always! Desi, the oldest, made cupcakes and decorated them in purple and green. Our campsite neighbors and good friends came for cupcakes too. There was frizbee and soccer balls flying. so much fun. So what did I do that was new. My two oldest daughters taught me how to play a card game. No

Got a couple of messages about not being able to post comments, so I think I have fixed this! Thanks for sending me your encouragements, thoughts, comments etc. I am loving reading all of them. An on top of all the emails, and facebook comments, people keep asking Dave (my husband) and my girls, what is this thing that Jenn is doing. I figured a few of my friends might read this but it seems I have started a real buzz here. Post your comments, and tell me what you think! I am not always right even if I think I am...LOL.... which is most of the time.....

SO, my recipes as you will discover are from my head, they are not from a book although, I may post a few in the future that I find and try out, but only if I like them. Today, is simple and you probably have tried this one already but it is perfect for hot weather which is predicted for this weekend... Bananas Blueberries grapes cherries (whatever kind of fruit you like) Vanilla pudding Whipped Cream Those vanilla cookies that come in the box little crackers, cant remember the brand name but I am sure you know what I am talking about. Cover the bottom of your dish with cookies, spoon in vanilla pudding, cover with whipped cream and add fruit, as much as you want. stick a cookie on top to decorate and eat a way! You can also do this with chocolate cookies too or chocolate pudding depending on what you like the best! I like both. Gosh, I really should eat breakfast first, now I am hungry, really hungry....... I wonder what is in the refrig? probably nothing I want to eat, LOL..... what

Good Morning, or hey... How do you know if it is really a good morning, don't you have to wait until it is over to see how the morning went? So far, not the best I have had. Woke up early all ready to do my new morning routine and much to my surprise or really much to my disappointment, children are sleeping in my living room and in my recliner. This makes me so mad. So I said to myself, take a breath, have a cup of coffee and figure something else out. So a few words about disappointment..... This is the enemy, i am tired of being disappointed by life or what life brings. I want it all but I can't seem to get there. I should clarify what I mean by I want it all. I want to enjoy my life. I want to spend time with my children the way I used to, go to all there sporting events, and special events, hang with them on weekends, watch movies with them, have dinner with them, play cards with them. They are only small once, and when they become teenagers, most of this stuff ends. Sure

The first day of my changing life is almost over. Wow, how my attitude has changed. That is the first thing. I saw at least three people today who read this blog and that made me feel good. I had a new attitude at work and it made a difference but still not happy there. Oh, well, I can fix that. I heard a song on the radio today, It was the song Dave and I had for our wedding song. "just the way you are" Billy Joel. I remember why we picked it because the band didn't know the other song we wanted. "Have I told you lately that I love you". well the other night, when all the kids had left camp and Dave and I were alone just enjoying the camp fire. This song came on and he said this is the song that reminds me of you. Wow, seventeen years and I still get those chills when he speaks! That will never change. So what else have I done today. Lots, I had lunch with a friend and laughed and talked and enjoyed the moment. Made a stop at the shop to see Ade! We are making

In the spirit of trying something new each day, I am looking at new recipes to try! Here is one for today! Try it, you might like it! They won't always be " healthly " but I think that they will taste good! 1 cup frozen blueberries (or your favorite fruit) 1 cup yogurt ( plain is good but just use one of those pre -measured flavored, you find in the dairy aisle, I use the fruit on the bottom kind from Breyers . 1 cup 100% juice (usually grape juice adds the right amount of sugars to the drink but try some different kinds until you love it!) some ice if you like it frozen. put all ingredients in a blender and share with your kids! they love these kind of drinks too! Add vodka if you have older friends over and are looking for something new to try but they fill you up quick so think about that. Like I said, this is about life changing not becoming a psycho health nut, I am all about enjoying life to the fullest.

This morning I worked out with some guy named Gilad on FIT TV(at least I think that was his name). Did some stretching and weights! I have tried aerobics- hated it; tried walking- boring; tried running- why would anyone want to run back to the same place they started!; so I have decided to try something new each day. They say that variety is the spice of life. I will be taping a different exercise program from FIT TV each day while I am at work and trying it out the next morning. I always wanted to try that belly dancing workout and I am sure it will be quite funny with all this weight wiggling around but what the heck! You are only young once. oh, yeah, that was a while ago! So let's just have fun. I am working out at 6 am because that is the only time my family is not around and still gives me time to shower and have coffee before work. Maybe I won't need coffee, wow what a concept! Tape something new to try and join me. I will post on this blog after my workouts to let you

This morning I woke up and realized that the only person who can make my life what I want is me! Sure I knew that from the beginning but I have always found someone else to blame. If only this person or that person would just butt out, I could be what I want to be, blah, blah, blah...... I have read and recited the poem about God granting me the serenity to accept things, wisdom to know the difference and the courage to change things. Nothing against God, but He does not having anything to do with it. I have to make up my mind to do these things. SO I AM! and you can too. So I am putting together a list of things I am working on for myself. * Stop being depressed! Life sucks so change it. * Get out of the house no matter what. I love science fiction and mystery TV and spend way to much time watching it. I need to work my body. * Exercise the stress away. started that last week but stepped it up today! I will post pictures and stats ( OMG how embarrassing but maybe I can prove somethi